The Monteau Family

Tamara
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I guess you could call me a dreamer. It seems like I've always had my head half-in and half-out of reality.

My parents divorced when I was seven. Looking back, I guess that's what caused me to build my own little world. My sister and I took the disruption of our lives harder than we realized at the time, I suppose, and we each dealt with it in our own ways. While I withdrew from the real world, making up stories and playing make believe, she took a more aggressive, and perhaps defensive, approach. For a while, we had only each other, and one small basket of toys between us, to play with, so we invented games and entertained ourselves the best way we could. Throughout our lives, our mother was always our best friend and confidant (and she was a real kick in the pants!).

As the years rolled on, I developed a love of all things artistic. I can sing (and have been told I have a beautiful voice, though I seriously doubt it), and I enjoy playing my guitar and electronic keyboard. I have done ceramic and porcelain work, and I love to sew, paint, knit, crochet and cook. My creativity helped me greatly when I worked as an administrative assistant for an Air Force organization. My mother's love of entertaining was passed down to me, and I enjoy putting on a good party, and then sitting back to watch my guests enjoy what I have done. If they're too busy eating to talk, I know I've done my job. I also love working on computers, and have developed quite a talent for graphic arts.

Mother is gone now, and we miss her dearly. Her memory still shapes who we are and aspire to become. My sister and I both have loving men in our lives and children in whom we are very proud. We still have different approaches to how we deal with life, and both suffer from long-term depression. I'm still a dreamer. I still play make-believe in my mind, and have developed a love of video games, especially role-playing adventures, love to read (always have) and watch science fiction, paranormal and fantasy movies and television. And when life throws me more than I can handle, I still retreat into my fantasy world to help me cope through difficult situations and events I don't really want to participate in. In that sense, I guess I'm a pretty good actress, though some have wondered why I always seem "not quite there."

My sister still faces life aggressively in circumstances she is familiar with. Sometimes she is real good at assuming a "kiss my what?" attitude. After our mother died, she chose to invite her demons into her home, rather than run from them. This led her into a facination for Halloween and all things macabre, and her greatest talent (and hobby) is creating new and unusual effects for her yard each year. You can just imagine what her home looks like: it is filled with all sorts of skulls, skeletons, and, yes, corpses. She is fond of refering to herself as a zombie, and me as a vampiress. Now, I guess, we're both members of the "undead society".

I have a great number of talents, and have outlined some of them in the pages that follow. Visit my pages frequently, as I'm sure I'll have something new and interesting for at least some of you. Happy browsing!